Ello again,

Bored outta my brain here, sick atm :( Again :(
Im always bloody sick, grr!
Had a migrane for the past 3 days and its driving me up the wall, I shouldnt even be on the comp but I had to do somthing to save my sanity :P
Was supposed to hav 3 tests in school today but I didnt have to go in, woot ^.^ but I bet ill have to do them tomorrow...fan-fucking-tastic :P
Ms."Preggers for past 3 years" Greene will make me do it for definate, Fat bitch =//
Really cant stand that woman, she has it in for meh lol

Going Paintballing on Saturday, cant wait :) gona b savage, gonna hurt like hell, but it'll still b grrreat xD I think joining Ventures was one of my Fav/best decicions, i love it, met so many great people and loving my times in Celbridge, well most of em anyway xD

Was talking to Richie today on msn and He decided that he should get a mention, so here yuu go hunii:

You are one of my greatest friends and I miss yuu like crazy! Your all grown up now in college xD Your always there for me when I need you and although we fight like cat and dog we always make up in the end and have a great laugh, You Have to come up to Dublin as soon as you can, I need too see yuu you crazy fool xD but you cant critise my smoking when you do lol, just deal with it biotch xD But i refuse to go Hideout if you come up again ;) jk jk *Ouch my head* ahhhh good times, maybe, not so much haha jk, ily huni, happy with your Mention now?? xD

ily loads bud, Miss yuu!!

xXx

Not much more to say about today but if I think about anything else ill b back later to bitch/whine/rant/vent/happily write about it xD

Love You all, well most of you anyway,

Ciao

Cpt Saz

xXx

Im thinking of startin a new blog, this one is tainted :P

Decided to go celbridge today, and yano what? I had fun :) Alot actually, saw friends, walked ALOT and got to see my leezziie :)

Not much to write about today, cause frankly I cant b arsed, im tired and drinking tea and its making me sleepy >.<

Just thought I'd write a mini blog instead of my usual essay of a yoke, so yeah,
today was fun, im not hated by everyone and i have friends I can count on,
life is good,
ciao for now ;)
Peace out

The Captain ;)

xXx

Feud...Fun Fun

Cillian, Grow up ok

I didnt do this to start a war
I started a blog to finally fucking open up about some of the shit in my life.
Everyone knew what you did to me anyway so whats wrong with me writing it on this?
You never had to read my blog, you never had to pay attention to it but you chose to, but there was no need for the childish war you have started on this site.
You seem to think that you have done nothing wrong, you have never hurt anybody, ect.
But just think Cillian, for the sake of everyone and yourself, just fucking think of what you've done to people.
And dont you dare give out to me for bringing up your therepy on this, so many people have said to me that you've had therepy, so dont act like its some sorid little seceret. Everyone knew anyway ok?
And yes, I did self harm, but ive never hidden it, ive told many people and before you say it, it was not for attention seeking, people see the scars and I tell them as I am not ashamed, it made me a strong person, the person I am today, you mightn't like the person I am but I wasnt put on this Earth to please you. So deal with it yeah?

So just stop it ok, I was putting my feelings on My blog, no need to start a war.
Just end it ok?

Im not doing this for you or I, Im doing it because I will be out in celbridge, I will see my friends, I will be around you sometimes, no matter how much that annoys you its going to happen, because we share the same group of friends, im doing it for them.

So do you wanna be grown up and accept that?
just quits?

if not, fair enough, but all I can say is, I tried.



Cpt.Saz.

Got internet back today,
Should be happy but im not. Frankly because ive only been back on it half and hour an already ive read shit about me that makes me feel like shit.
The person who wrote it about me is a hypocritical, self involved low life who uses and abuses people and acts like the victim in it all.
I've been sick all week, feeling like crap and the last thing i needed was to log on to this and read shit written about me, espescially when ive done nothing wrong. I've done nothing against nobody yet im still being targetted by this arogant bully. He hurts alot of people and doesnt seem to care. He treats people like toys, gets bored with em after a while. and frankly everyone is sick of it. he says in his blog that one guy that shit happened with,( drunken mistake) was saying shit about me, well that was ONE person, he should hear the shit said about him constantly. By almost everyone in the group. He says in his blog that people should stop bitching and backstabbing on this site but he did it about me so ill do the fucking same.
He will probably read this and write another blog in retalliation and laugh at the things ive called him, but i only hope that it'll make him think of what a bully he really is and realise that he needs to change his selfish ways. He is doing to others what was done unto him and what put him into fucking therepy, if i was in his position i wouldnt try put other people through the shit i went through. So hopefully he'll grow up when he reads this, i highly doubt it but one can always hope.

Ok enough about him, Ive been back in school for a good while now, loving most of it, hatin the rest. The work isnt so bad, i hate the homework but im starting to do it, seeing my friends again is great, heading off to knocklyon 2mz with shonavich and niamhavich xD gonna be funn :) love seeing them in school again. its like old times only better, i hav my celbridge friends with my leixlipians and im pretty happy about it :) but yeah, hav to go 2 school and see Melissa, the person i hate in all of this world, hav to share my friends with her, have to listen to her irritating, whiney voice for an hour at LEAST everyday :( and even worse than that im being bullied in school again, but not by another student, by a fucking teacher, i hate that woman so much!! she picks on me and when i actually do well she accuses me of cheating, like WTF? she can shove her irish test up her fat little arse!! Strangely enough, Accounting has become one of my favourite classes, surprising huh? spending it with kerri, laughing our heads off and me actually enjoying the work im doing, i loike it xD
im not writing alot on school, gross. i was sick this week, alot. and missed loads of stuff going on in celbridge, loads of ppl broke up and ppl are fighting anfd its chaos and i dont know anything about whats going on >.< i need to know!!! people update mehhh!!!! Oh and Before i go i have to give a shout out to Georgia....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING
I LOVE YOU LOADS,
NEVER FORGET THAT,
MWAH,
xXx


Bye for now everbody,
hopefully things will be better in my next blog,
love you all,
ciao
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Back again!!
told you i wouldnt b writing for a while :P
stupid broken internet >.<
anywho, lets get up to date with t6hins crappy ting i call a life :P
yes, very emo but things have NOT been good
unfortunatly but obviously im still single :(
due to lack of interest from every single guy i like
and plenty of interest from the guys i do not, fun huh?
well we'll talk firstly about the guys from my last blog shall we?
the guy that screwed me over is still with his gf, good for them, happy for em,
still hate him with a flaming passion but if they're happy, actually, if just Efa's happy, I'm happy xD
now for that other guy i was crazy about, i still am, still will be for i while i guess, but he told me he felt the same yet didnt want me, Great.
he liked me, just not enough to go out woith me or do anything about it so obviously he didnt like me as much as he said. i guess i should be used to it at this stage.
but the annoying thing is, i still like him. *fuck fuckidy fuck fuck* stupid boy :P
I also like other ppl but they got with ppl, or are sorta with ppl so ill just try find new ppl to try interest me xD
im also confused about one guy, we act like we hate each other, hav good craic and are reli good m8's but i dunno if i like m=him more than that or not
it confuses me, then again, anything to do with guys confuse me xD
and according to my friends im the expert on them so imho*, theyre screwed (*in my honest opinion)
so yer, enough about boys, you'd think i was obsessed by reading my blog xD
nothing else interesting going on, except for one tuhng i should've mentioned at the start, IM GOING TO PARAMORE xD
woot ^.^
how amazing is that??? xD

anywho, time for shout outs to some certain friends that i said i would...

Niamhavich & Shonavich:
My Besties, always there through thick and thin and many many blode moments xD
i dont know who has the most.. *cough*Shona*Cough* but we all have em xD They're always there to listen (especially when im giving them sex. ed. ;)) and they're great to listen to, they give great advice on almost everything xD
Theyre the most trustworthy ppl ive ever known, along with my next friend Leeziie..

Leeziie: Leeziie is my wifey, my babii, my EVERYTHING,she deserves the best friends, the best boyfriend & the best shout out form my blog, and she has em all ;)
she always listens, always gives advice, is always there to lean on when you need a shoulder to cry on, and you never hav to ask her to do it, she just does it because she amazing like that
she has gone through so much shit in her life and its all made her a bttr person and for that she should be proud because there is not a single person like her in this world
i love this girl with all my heart and she is my bestie, love you babiie

Diarmuid: the husband to my wifey ^^ and the future father of my retarded incest babiies (just dont ask ok?)
what more can i say than * you put a bommmb in me potaaatoo*, TY, the reason im friends with this guy xD
like his dear leeziie, hes a great listener and very protective of his friends, always there to cheer me up when things *cough* boys *cough* go wrong.
i love you more than vegetable lasagne bro xD

Georgia: OBSESSED WITH BOYS!!!!!! i dont know anyone who loves guys more that this girlie ;)
she's just fabulous and always so happy, just being around this girl cheers you up :)
she is obsessed with my ex which i find hilarious cause i hate the guy and forget that other ppl dont so i dont understand y ppl like him,
but then i think again and realise i once fell for him too :P but she deserves the best of best guys, she's so loving and has such a happy personality that any guy would b lucky to have her
plus the fact tht she's gorgeous too but just doesnt seem to realise it :)

Samii: Ah-Maze-ing
love her
want her
want her babiies ;)
love yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
such a laugh, such a good friend
and a fellow job having person thing xD *hi5*
has fabulous clothes,
always looks gorgeous,
grr
love you sweetie
i still owe you for those cans yuu bought me that day :L
i will pay it back some day darling :)
xXx

What Goes Up, Must Come Down...

My first blog...hmm, what to mention?

Back to school now, fun fun :P 3rd years think they have it bad? wait till they get into fifth, just Grrness :P

So yeah, Summer, a lot happened these past 3 months, lost a bf, gained ALOT of new friends, lost old friends, found many new fellas ;) got screwed over by those fellas and now, being confused by the latest of those fellas, confused much? I sure am.

So we'll start with the beginning of summer shall we?

Leixlip Festival, Savage time, drunken nights, first taste of new friends to come (aka Celbridge pplzzzz), met Leezziie babes for the first time, instantly fell in love ;) in the best friend kinda way of course xD became a full time smoker and poor person cause all my wages went on smokes..

Had a pretty boring summer for the next two weeks or so, working, seeing the then bf, fuckface xD

Then, a week to my 17Th birthday, disaster, got dumped, but it turned out ok in the end, i still got the birthday present, disaster avoided :D ;)

Ok, then, going through a reli shitty time, I called my best friend in the world, my surrogate brother, the future father of our retarded incest babies, Diarmuid xD and asked if I can come out and hang with him and leezziie for a day.

That was THE best decision of my life. Because as of that day, I became a Celbridge person, Imay live in Leixlip but Celbridge is my home xD and since that day I went out there I was accepted, and i have spent almost every day possible out there. Drunken days down the Weir, Smoking, Being Raped on the basket swing, Eating Chinese almost EVERY day lol

but when things go up, they must come down....Boys. Need I say more?

Ah boys, the reason I dream, the reason I lie, the reason I love, the reason I cry, they suck but I cant get enough of em.

This summer i got screwed over by some one i was falling for and when i say screwed over, i mean literally =/

It hurt, it reli did, I wont deny that, BUT, I'm a strong person and got over it quickly xD

plenty more fish in the sea right? Very true, there are a few ppl I'm quite liking atm, I wont mention names but its pretty damn obvious anyway, but there's one guy in particular I'm pretty crazy about, he says he feels the same way but its all a big huge complicated mess and is making my brain melt with each day it goes on.I hope its all dealt with soon because I will pass out from confusion soon enough and I do not want that to happen, cause it'll remind me of that day at Elise's aunts....ah memories...xD getting baked at Elise's family party and passing out and collapsing in front of all her family. Then, giving an Oscar worthy performance while BAKED, making her whole family believe it was sleep deprivation, I should get an Oscar or some award for that :L Bullshitter of the year xD

Any who back to the topic of What goes up, must come down...Friends, yes, I did gain alot of new and amazing friends this year, but I also lost alot. My TY crowd, who I spent the year hanging out with, tagging along, yet never feeling like I fitted 'in'. They were good ppl, just not my kind of ppl...Then for a while I sorta lost my two best friends, not that we were fighting, but when I started hanging with Celbridge ppl, I kinda lost thought of Niamh and Shona, my homies, my hoes, my two colliding worlds xD they've always been there through thick and thin with advice and humour and Ben and Jerry's ;) and tea on hand for me whether id b laughing, crying, or throwing a Sarah Bitch Fit. But I came up with an ingenious plan, combine my Celbridge gang with my Leixlipians xD this could work *cross fingers*.

& now I see my besties everyday in school so all is right with the world again xD but yeah speaking of school, I've only been back two days and I've already ditched classes! disgraceful huh? ah well, it was just maths and Mr MORIARTY CAN GO FUCK HIMSELF FOR ALL I CARE XD sorry, that man just annoys me :P

Any who, I probably wont write a blog very often, which you will prob b happy to hear, but when I do, prepare for ranting, boy troubles and very little optimism,

for now, I bid you adieu,

Mucho amor,

Cpt. Saz

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